Before he began in his spiritual career, my teacher was a nurse. He told us about being assigned to work in the psychiatric ward. Curious, he would ask the patients why they were there.
As they described their symptoms, he realized he had many of the same experiences they did. Seeing visions, talking to people that “weren’t there” and hearing voices were all normal to him. The difference was his psychic and spiritual training, and how conscious he was of himself and what was happening. Those “crazy” people didn’t have that.
Fast forward to today… I am not looking to talk to spirits or hear voices for the most part. When people first meet me and they hear I’m intuitive, they often wonder what I’m picking up about them. The answer is usually: “nothing,” other than what is relevant to our interaction at the moment. When they are surprised, I explain that just because I’m clairvoyant, etc. doesn’t mean I walk around reading everyone all day long. To do so would be like walking into Best Buy and watching all the TVs at once! I have a life… 🙂
There was a time, though, when I didn’t know how to turn the TVs off. There was a time when I didn’t know I was reading other people, I didn’t know that some of the voices in my head weren’t mine, and I didn’t know how to feel my own feelings because there were so many other people’s feelings I felt too.
Fortunately, I had a good education and enough stability in my life and family that I didn’t end up in the psychiatric ward. And I am so glad I found my spiritual training, because it truly helped me find myself.
Now, when a client asks me a question, or if I have a question about my own life, I close my eyes and literally imagine a blank TV screen a few feet out in front of me. Considering the question, I allow images, symbols and colors to appear and paint a picture of the situation. There is an art to interpreting things and especially communicating in a way that is helpful, but anyone can learn to get answers this way! It’s that simple.
The nice thing about clairvoyance (seeing with your third eye or psychic sight) is that it means you don’t have to feel, channel or take in any energy that’s not yours. You can simply look at it. I find this so refreshing!
As for my natural abilities to feel other people and hear voices and so on, I use them now all the time. I use them in my work to sense what students are needing or wondering about, for example. The difference now is that I am conscious of it, and I have a strong enough sense of myself to know who’s who.
It took me awhile to get here. Meditation has been the key. I had to learn tools to release other people’s feelings and thoughts, find my center within and refill my own energy.
Today, I am not so focused on psychic abilities in and of themselves. Yes, I teach them, but the bottom line is making a difference in our real lives– our relationships, work and so on…
To varying degrees, we are all psychic anyway. By this I mean, we are all aware of energy that’s not visible to the physical eye or to any external senses. It’s totally normal to sense these things and, unfortunately, it’s rare to be taught about them.
That alone is enough to make us feel crazy. And it comes up with such simple, everyday things. For example, a child might ask her mother what’s wrong and be told “everything is fine,” when it isn’t. “Imaginary friends” are often spirits or angels.
Here is the problem with not talking about energy: what we refuse to look at will run our lives. If you are aware of something, simply acknowledging it brings healing. Psychologists talk about this too, in different terms. I think of it as shining the light in the shadow. Then we can laugh and go on with our day, instead of perpetuating generations of shame and fear and pain that we don’t understand because nobody talked about it.
As good as my education was, it never taught me how to manage the energy I experienced on a daily basis. Besides being so sensitive, I also had no idea that I too was projecting energy outside myself. I didn’t understand the effects of any of this, though I sensed the power in it and developed a passion to figure it out. And so I found meditation, Aikido, yoga and tons of spiritual books and classes to teach me.
Trying to process emotions that aren’t yours is insane. Trying to solve someone else’s problem is like beating your head up against a wall because you’re trying to fit a puzzle piece that doesn’t fit into your puzzle. And it takes a lot of effort to manifest things in your “real life” if you don’t know how to get present in your body.
Here’s one tip: If you sense that some of what you’re feeling is not yours, the first step is to acknowledge it. Write it down or tell a friend. Anything that you can’t process is ok to just let go. There are techniques I can teach you to do that if you’re not sure how.
Once you start to become conscious of your sensitivity, then energetically “reading” other people and questions for your life becomes fun and enlightening. It’s been such a joy to witness my students’ growing confidence and amazing accuracy, not to mention the personal breakthroughs they’ve had.
Ultimately we are all one, and yet it’s not healthy to merge until you know who you are.
I learned I was not crazy. Instead of losing myself, I found myself and from there I could open to the world.